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It's possible you stumbled on this blog or you may have received the link to this blog from myself, from your friend , family member or from social media, either way I am sure God led you to this blog for a reason.
I am trusting that after reading this blog your mindset will change and the way you handle storms, battles and adversities when they come your way will be different.
Believe it or not we all go through adversity at one point or the other in our lives, the truth is a lot of times we are not even prepared or ready for these tough times or challenges.
Sometime it feels like nothing actually prepares you for these storms, if there is one major lesson i have learnt from previous battles and storms, it is the fact that there is absolutely nothing like being full with the word of God.
It may seem like a cliché, but I tell you, I could never have gone through the storm if not for the grace and knowledge of God, We serve a God who gives peace that surpasses all understanding Philippians 4:6, God’s peace does not mean that we will not go through challenges but it means that even in the midst of the storm you are able to stay calm and sane, it means your battles or challenges will not have you and that God will always be in control.
In 2003, I got married to my first love a man I love with all my heart, I grew up a Muslim with no thorough background of Christianity other than a few thing I had learnt in school by taking Christian religious studies in secondary school.
Although I remember that before I got married I had given my life to Jesus at a church service I went to with my school friends, anyway at the time I got married I was not spiritually mature and I will almost say I was a baby Christian at the time.
I experienced my first miscarriage about 4 months after we got married and I was sad but I looked forward to trying again, I began to aggressively pressure my husband that we try again, eventually we did and I got pregnant again, unfortunately I lost that pregnancy again.
It was almost as if I was expecting this to happen to me, the underlying truth behind this was my fear and phobia growing up , I grew up convinced that I would be barren all my life and that I will never bear a child of my own, this was a lie that the devil whispered in my ears at a very young age, I would say I was about 15 when this lie began to take root in my life, to be honest till now I don’t even know how this lie started.
After the second miscarriage I became paranoid, it was so bad that it affected my marriage I mean sex was no longer a pleasure, it became a chore something I pressured my husband about constantly because I badly wanted to prove the devil wrong.
However, there was something missing, I was battling these lies against the devil but I was not rooted in the word of God, I was not grounded in the word and I realized how I can I fight this battle of fear without the right weapons to overcome it with?
I remember my third pregnancy I was pregnant again and I was happy and truly excited my husband and I decided to go to the hospital to register for ante natal because I was approaching my 2nd trimester of pregnancy, I remember the doctor doing a scan and he broke the news to me and said the baby in my womb was not breathing anymore, I was screaming that day, “how?” why? How could this happen again?
The doctor suggested an evacuation that day, he said that was best I remember seeing my husband shed tears that day, I had never seen him cry before that day.
That shook me to my core, I cried bitterly and it took a few days before I finally agreed to the evacuation, I was living in fear even the doctor did all kinds of tests on me but they could not diagnose anything.
I remember my husband gently talking me through the pain and emotional turmoil, I made a decision that day to wholeheartedly surrender to God, I had been trying to fight the battle on my own, I had relied on my strength not realizing that my strength can only take me so far, there is only one who is capable of holding you and perfecting everything that concerns us.
So I changed my strategy, I began to learn to rely on and trust in the only one who Is able to change and transform my situation, the only who could give me the strength to thrive through adversities, the only God is who able to do exceedingly abundantly above and beyond all we can ask or think Ephesians 3:20-21
My eyes were no longer focused on my trials neither were my eyes focused on my battles or pain, I kept my eyes glued on God, remember Psalms 121:1 ‘ I will lift up mine eyes to the hills From whence cometh my help My help cometh from the Lord, The Lord which made heaven and earth’
My prayer life changed, I became intentional about seeking the one true God who is my refuge and fortress, you see adversities are inevitable sometimes but thriving through adversity is impossible without Jesus, you cannot thrive through adversity without submission or surrender to the one who is the master burden bearer.
Anyway days became weeks and weeks became months, I began to fill my self with the word of God, I spent time dwelling in His secret place, seeking Him, I realized that dwelling in the secret place is where transformation happens, that is where restoration happens!
The more time I spent with Him, my outlook and mindset began to change, and so each time the devil came back with his lies I was ready to give Him the truth of God’s words, my favorite scripture became Lamentations 3:37 Who is he who speaks and it comes to pass, if the Lord has not authorized and commanded it?
God says none shall be barren and or cast their young, so I stood on the truth of God’s Words!
Few months later I found out I was pregnant, and I was excited and trusted God for a breakthrough, during the pregnancy I had several complications, the devil was unrelenting, my son was born on Feb 23rd 2005 at 7months, he was premature but I trusted God my reaction to what I was going through this time had changed because I had learnt to trust God through my battles and challenges, I had learnt to trust him through my battles and adversities instead of worry I began to worship and praise God, my son was in the neo natal ward for premature babies but I would go there to look at my tiny baby daily and each time I visited I worshipped and thanked God, to God’s glory my son was discharged and He has been in perfect health.
You see God is not the son of man that He should lie (23:19) He is faithful to deliver anytime, but note this, there is only one who can see us through adversities and challenges and His name is Jesus.
That adversity may seem overwhelming but be rest assured that the knowledge of the size of your God will shrink that adversity in your eyes regardless how big it may appear.
After going through these challenges does it mean my life is perfect? No it is not but regardless the adversity I go through I am always reminded that I serve a perfect God who is able!
The devil no longer has hold over me, I have been set free through Christ Jesus.
Dunni Ajiboye.
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